"forever alone"

Holidays.

Well, its holiday season. And we here at You Are Not the One would like to give a warm happy holidays to everyone.

So whether you’re trapped in a snow storm with some hot chocolate or laying in the sun somewhere, have a great holiday season!

To pull this post back into the point of this entire blog, relationships around the holidays can be tricky. There’s the question of what to give the other person, whether you’re giving too much or too little or what exactly to do with family stuff around this time. But it ends up okay in the end, worrying about those little things aren’t as important as the true spirit of this season.

And if you’re like the three of us running this blog who are perpetually alone this Christmas, there’s always next year and spending this time alone isn’t that big of a deal. Honestly, part of the holiday spirit everyone has is hope. Yes, you may be single now, but who’s to say nothing’s going to happen in a month? Or within the next year? No one but yourself. For now, try to enjoy single life a little. It’s not going to be that way forever.

But have a happy [insert whatever holiday you celebrate here to be culturally sensitive] and a great New Year’s! And keep asking questions or advice. We’re always here!

~Julianne

Dec 24th, 2011

Complicated Matters.

I hate to generalize, but men kind of suck.

To give you an update on… my “relationship,” if that’s what you’d even call this, I like a boy.

That same boy likes me. Well, liked, but I’m getting ahead of myself here. He gathered some things a few weeks ago that I’d written on my regular blog and told me he liked me too. We sound like we’re back in grade school with this part of the story. But it was cute.

That night, a school night I should add, he rode his bike to my house and we walked and talked for a good hour about anything and everything. It even started to rain a little bit, but neither of us wanted to go inside.

That night he explained that he didn’t want a relationship. All he really wanted right now was a crush, someone to woo and court. I was fine being that girl. I liked being that girl.

Then we went out the next night and talked even more. He explained his situation with another girl, but I realized that she wasn’t really worth getting any kind of anxiety over.

The very next day, a Saturday, I was on a high from the night before. It was a fantastic feeling. I mean, a guy that I like that liked me back? That was unheard of.

And then I got a text from him. He said it would be best if we just stayed friends because things were “complicated” for him. He told me I should find someone else to like. That I deserved to be with someone who wants a relationship. I pretended like I was okay with that.

But I’m not okay with that. I liked what we were, even if it was only for a few days. I was okay with being “lead on” (his terms, not mine) for now.

Why does it always have to end like this? Why does it have to be so complicated?

I got a text from one of his friends this past weekend. This friend likes me. I know this, even though he hasn’t directly told me. He wanted to know if I like-liked my homecoming date (neither of these guys). Again, this sounds like we’re back in grade school.

I texted back and said “I don’t think so. I’m not really interested in anyone specifically right now.”

But it was a lie. It was lie with good intention, though.

The issue is, he’s a nice kid. I don’t want to hurt him. I wanted to get the point across as to not lead him on.

But what was I supposed to say? “No, I don’t like (homecoming date’s name). I like your friend. You know, the one you’re with right this second.” No. That’d be terrible.

And, I’m supposed to be “just friends.” But no matter how much he tells me I should like someone else, I can’t help but think about him. How am I supposed to forget that he loves keys and has a tattoo of one on his ankle? Or how much he loves Full House and horizontal stripes? Or how he has all of these views and feelings and talents?

How am I supposed to forget all of this when I still have feelings for him and still want to remember?

We still talk, we still hang out. I think he still likes me. But I have no idea.

This might sound like an elementary school crush, but it’s much more complicated.

~Julianne

Sep 21st, 2011

A Letter to the Brainless.

Dear “Gibson,”

Yes, I liked you. Yes, you are a musician. Yes, you’re smart and funny. And, yes, you know exactly what to say to make a girl fall for you. But you’re not all you’re cracked up to be.

I mean, let’s face it, all of us are far from perfect. We all have issues that we’re dealing with. But I thought I could look past your flaws and you could look past mine.

I mean, yes, you’re into some bad stuff and you don’t exactly have the most trust worthy friends. Oh, and girls are crawling all over you, which you definitely notice. But, like I said, I thought I could look past all of that. Maybe we could actually be together.

But I guess I had a bigger flaw than all of yours. That flaw? The fact that you wouldn’t be able to get in my pants.

I think you actually thought I was easy. Even though you knew me and talked to me and knew how my family was, you probably thought I’d change just for you? That’s a laugh.

So when you found out you might actually have to work a little bit to get anywhere (I should add, you were going to get nowhere), you decided to ignore me. You didn’t like the thought that you’d actually have to try.

Also, I figured all this out because of one of your old friend. Oh, and she told me that you were talking to a bunch of skinny freshman girls with big boobs. Dude, you’re a senior, at least have some standards. Don’t just trick freshman into doing what you want for your own benefit.

Back to the point: I’m not under your spell anymore. Yeah, maybe we can be friends, but you’re going to have to put effort in this time.

Also, I think I scare you a little bit. I mean, maybe I’m just thinking of myself to highly, but maybe you’re scared of having an actual, close relationship with someone. And that someone could’ve been me. Maybe I represent everything you want to have in a long-term relationship, but you don’t know how to make the leap. I don’t think you’re that close with your family, so it makes sense that you never really try to get to know someone. You’re afraid of being attached to something that might not last.

Basically, you’re afraid you could get hurt.

But you might learn someday. Until then, enjoy living life one girl after another. And I hope you at least regret misleading people for so long.

Especially me, though. We could’ve been something. You ruined that.

And now I’m saying “you are not the one.”

~Julianne

Aug 24th, 2011

I Think I’m Done.

I’m serious this time.

I don’t think I can stay under his spell anymore. I deserve better than to sit around wondering if he’s thinking about me. Mainly because he probably isn’t. And I need to accept that and move on.

The worst part of this situation? I doubt he even realized how much I liked him.

And what’s almost just as bad is that I knew he didn’t want a relationship. But I let myself believe that he might want to change just for me.

It was dumb, and I knew that the moment I started thinking it.

But I kept chasing. But I’m done now.

He has been hanging out with… questionable people… and doing some shady things. Why would I want that in my life? Because he was hot. And funny. And a musician. Not a good combo for me with the rest of his personality.

But I ignored the bad parts of him because I wanted so badly to only see the good parts.

So now he doesn’t have my number. I could give it to him anytime I want to. But I don’t think I will. Maybe if he asks me in person or something, but I’m not going to look like the desperate little girl that I was.

Its funny how that was only a few months ago.

But now I’m in pursuit of a better guy. I don’t know who this guy is yet, but I will. Hopefully soon.

 There just aren’t a ton of guys where I live that I’d date.

They’re all usually either too nerdy or too tool-y. Most of them are tools though.

I’ve planned a “boy hunt” with another person helping to run this blog, Kayley, but we both chickened out.

And now that “boy hunt” will have to wait because I’m guessing a lot of the guys working places all quit because that was just a summer job. And now they’ll have more free time to get a girlfriend as fast as they can and take her out.  That “her” will not be me.”

Okay, maybe that example went a little too far in detail. But it proves something about me:

I’m a little worried I’ll be single forever.

Let’s try looking at this from a positive perspective: Maybe there will be someone new at my school. Maybe I’ll be a new friend. Maybe he’ll decide he really likes me. OR, maybe a guy decides that he wants to try theatre. Then we’ll meet and become friends. And then maybe I’ll finally get a boyfriend.

Okay, so that probably won’t happen. But a girl can dream, can’t she?

~Julianne

Aug 11th, 2011

Hello.

So this is a blog about who we are, not just by ourselves, but in relationships. Be it with friends, family, or significant others.

This blog is here to help you figure your life out, because all of us have been there.

So you’re probably wondering who we are. But what you really need to know is what’s going on with us. Currently, all three of us, Kayley, Julianne, and Sammy, are experiencing relationship issues. And we all need advice some of the time, so we’re going to share our issues with you and let you share your issues with us. We want to help not only each other, but all of you as well.

So hit the follow button to see what problems others are having, send us an ask, or just read to see if we might be able to make your life feel a little bit better.

-Kayley, Julianne, and Sammy

Jun 27th, 2011